As long as you are constantly in his face, crying and begging, why should he ask you to forgive him. He has you like a puppet on a string and as long as he rejects you, he feels you will keep on coming. When he is out having a good time and even dating other women, he can feel secure because he knows he has you. Your ex boyfriend knows that if he tires of chasing other women, you are only a phone call away.
This makes for a pretty good life for him and a miserable one for you. There is no way you will ever have a solid relationship with the man you love until you make him see the strong and mature woman you need to become. If you are sitting at home feeling sorry for yourself, you need to get angry. Go into your bedroom, throw yourself on the bed and cry, kick and scream until you have it all out of you. Then take a long soaking bath.
When you have finished, you will feel much better. From this point on you are going to stop crawling to him and make him come crawling to you. Make a vow that from this moment on you will have no contact with him except for one email. But you are not ready to send it just yet. First you have to prepare your ex. He thinks you are sitting at home waiting for him to call, but you are going to give him an awakening.
Go get a new hair style and some new clothes to make you look desirable. Then get with your friends and go out and have a good time. Stop by the places he hangs out and be sure he gets a good look at you. His jaw will drop in amazement and he will try to get close enough to talk to you, but leave before he can start a conversation. The next day you send the email.
In the email, say you thank him for the good times you had together, but now you see it is time you both moved on, and wish him a good life. That is all you need to say. Now you should disappear for a while. If you can take a vacation, that would be great, but if you can't, at least stay out of his sight. You have him stunned and now you want to make him worried. When he broke up with you, your boyfriend did not want to lose you.
After seeing you looking so desirable he will feel that you will be getting plenty of offers and he had better mend fences with you fast. That is why you need to make yourself scarce. He will try to call you, but all he will get is your recorded message. This will drive him crazy and he will see how it feels to be ignored and rejected. By the time he is able to contact you, he will be crawling.